"Doctor" was my dream, "Lecturer" is my dream

"Life is a matter of choice - Mr. Adi Jaya"

"You can't change your fate. No matter how hard your efforts are to reach your dream, God will decide it. God has designed and created our life. Therefore, We should be always thanked to God."

I am 19 years old boy. I am a 2nd semester student of English Education Department. I study English because I love it. I've been into it since I was in 5th grade of elementary school. Actually, I did not expect to study here, in English Education Department. Before this, I wanted to be a doctor not an English teacher.

That was a year ago... When I was in senior high school.

I took science department in senior high school. I studied mathematics, physics, biology, languages, and other basic sciences. It seemed that I really loved biology and English. In fact, they were my favorite subjects. I used to get the best score of those subjects. I really loved biology and that was one of my two reasons why I want to be a doctor. Other reason is my parents pushed me to be a doctor. I felt really ambitious. "I want to make my parents proud of me! Father... Mother..., I will try hard to reach my dream! No, that's our dream! You said that I am very expensive son. You wasted most of your money to save my life when I was child. I must pay for it!" I talked to myself.

The days when national exam and National Higher Education Entrance Exam (We call it as SNMPTN in Indonesia) nearly come up. I studied hard everyday. I practiced, I prayed, I joined other courses in order to expand more my knowledge about all of my science subjects at school. I did all of my efforts to reach my dream, to be accepted in medical faculty in a university in Bali. The national exam finally came up. I did it smoothly as bird's feather. As the result, I got high scores for national exam. However, I got bad luck when SNMPTN was held. I failed the test. I did not give up and studied hard for the next PMDK test. .....